Im at the ripe old age of 62 have had many years of seeing the world and its change’s and the experiences i have been through in my own life, its been up and down and round and round but whatever i have achieved or failed it’s my experiences to my life. And today i see things differently again in the way we are in society and what i’m going through with my own challenges in life, and again with one in particular i have to work it out were i can get on top off it to help me out in the direction im going and want to go in life.
THE WAY I SEE THE CHANGES IN LIFE AND SOCIETY.
In today’s world we are constantly pulled and pressured in many directions now more than ever we need to find a place where we can go to experience comfort and peace while receiving directions and guidance for life.
It has been said, There are only two days in the year that nothing can be done. One is called Yesterday and one is called Tomorrow. So today is the right day to love, believe, respect, do and mostly Enjoy & Live.
Today’s Reality.. Big house but small family. More education but less common sense. Advanced medicine but poor health. Touched the moon but neighbors unknown. High income but less peace of mind. High IQ but less emotions. Good knowledge but less wisdom. And Finally Lots of human beings but less humanity.
Sometimes when you feel down and out like i do today, well i have no one to express it to so this my way of letting out my feelings and how i see on being alone all the time.. loneliness is a disease in some way and yes i do hide my feelings, i think the greatest part of being on a 2 an 1 shift i didn’t have time to be and feel alone except for the evenings which id be asleep any way, i miss my security of being away from home.
When it hurts — observe, life is trying to teach you something.
The most tragic fact about loneliness is unlike sicknesses and diseases, there’s really no cure for this experience of feeling rejection, of being an outcast.
I try to keep everyone happy, sometimes that means not being happy myself.
Loneliness expresses the pain of being alone and solitude expresses the glory of being alone.
You smile but you wanna cry. You talk but wanna be quiet. You pretend like your happy, but you aren’t.
With me i find mental pain of being alone is less dramatic than physical pain, but it can be more common and also more hard to bear with. I find the frequent attempts to conceal mental pain increases the burden of being alone. I can say to the kids easier i have a headache than to say that my heart is feeling loneliness. I feel to me loneliness is not just a feeling of being alone, it’s the fear of knowing the length or time for me it’s been twenty years of being on my own, it’s the depression, inferiority, it’s all so a collection of negative emotions building up a massive wall around you.
The greatest battles are not those who fight with guns and swords, it’s that internal struggle with loneliness. This adversary has no human feelings, it never retreats.
I believe iv’e had another challenge thrown at me one that has built up over twenty years and one i need to work out i spose the easiest way is to find love, it’s hard when u have no confidence to find that love… i have to say for now i just keep working on getting my head hopefully i’m back up north in the next week or two that will help, its called the cowards way out lol sometimes im glad im a coward.
Matty im ok buddy getting through it don’t worry lol…